"If I Look Back, I Am Lost."

It's been a while since I've posted a new entry. Since my last entry, I've been dealing with A LOT. A lot of drama, a lot of bull, a lot of unexpected & absolutely unnecessary problems, most of which I'm still not ready to talk about in any sort of length or detail. I've dissected & analyzed with a couple of close friends many, many times, & the entire situation still makes no sense. So, long story short: MAY SUCKED.

For the most part. 

I always try to keep a positive outlook about things, & I am oh-so-grateful for my parents & friends who were so kind to me last month. I seriously might have starved without them. It's such a blessing to have such sweet, wonderful people in your life, & I cannot even begin to express my gratitude. 

I am so glad to have May behind me now. I am doing all I can to make June a much better month. All last month, I kept one phrase in my head to help me get through pretty much everything (workouts, bad days at work, all the drama, etc.), & that phrase was: "Keep moving forward." However, in the last couple of weeks or so, I've needed some extra strength. I found a new mantra to keep, & I enjoy it so much that I'm thinking of making a piece of decor for my apartment with this quote on it: "If I look back, I am lost." It's from (nerd alert) my favorite Daenerys chapter in A Game of Thrones, by George R. R. Martin. Maybe it's just because I read that chapter when I did, or maybe it affects everyone this way, but those words gave me chills & I felt a small bit of strength every time I read them. This could also be explained by the fact that I get way too caught up in books, plays, movies, shows, etc. Nevertheless, they had a huge impact on me. That has become my mantra, at least for the time being. "If I look back, I am lost."

Loves.